I had a dream the other night... Now this is a big deal to me considering I seldom dream and even when I do it's few and far in between and I rarely if EVER remember any of them...

Now dreams have long been considered the means through which your subconscience relates messages to you, or your heart telling you what it really wants, so when it comes to pass that I remember my dream, I take it seriously...

So imagine my shock and horror when the one dream I've managed to remember vividly was one where I was directing porn in my apartment... =/

My immediate reaction was, naturally, WTF?! But after a cigarette and a cup of tea to calm my shaken nerves I was thinking logically again and realised that vivid though it may have been, dreams don't necessarily have to be literal...

So okay, I decided to look up what it might mean on dream interpretation websites...

My first search on google was a dead end, as the first site I managed to find was of a porn star who was into dream interpretation, and although I was tempted to just email her and ask what's what I ultimately decided against it...

The rest of the search turned up links to books on directing porn, books on interpreting dreams and well a whole bunch of porn...

So I thought I'd just search for dream interpretation sites next...

Oddly enough, none of them seemed to contain references to dreams of porn directing ( you know what I mean, damnit!) but there were two references to pornography...

Pornography

To dream that you are watching pornography, indicates your issues with intimacy, power, control, and effectiveness. You may be having concerns about your won sexual performance. Alternatively, you may be afraid in exposing some aspect of yourself.

To dream that you in a porno film, suggests your desire to be more sexually adventurous. It also implies lust and wish-fulfillment.

Now I wasn't sure how to see this, as I wasn't technically simply watching porn and I wasn't exactly IN it... Kind of a mix of both actually...

I couldn't find any references on directing or filmmaking either, although watching a film apparently means you're trying to analyse yourself or somethng like that...

I DID find an entry under obedience whereupon if people were being obedient towards you that is a sign of good fortune and success in your business... But I don't think that counts...

So okay, now to put it all together...

Hmmm...

From what I can tell it DOES mean that an aspect of myself that I'm afraid of exposing is that I want to direct pornography... =/